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 I am not having the amazing feeling about myself, you know when you want to be hit by a bus or just jump off from somewhere but you have friends. Yeah that, I don't know what I wanna do next but somehow, I am able to tell people what they wanna do. What is that called? 

Reason behind I am writing this: I am an Indian and a female. 

My friend tanya is a big big intellectual, she doesn't speak much but if she starts you better not be the target. We have been friends since fourth grade, she knows me pretty well and she has curly hair. That doesn't make sense, backspace. We have fought a hell number of times and mostly because she doesn't like it if someone copies her. Even if I think about a similar career option like hers. She'll bury me then and there. But for that, she needs to think of a career option. When we are good at everything, we are best at nothing.